For those of you who still read this and check in on me, I'm not here anymore.

I've moved on from this period of my life. A lot is changing right now, and I feel like it's time to shed this skin.

So, if you're looking for me, I'll be here-

Man...I'm kind of depressed. It's my 18th birthday today...but nothing's happening. It's just any other day. I don't think I'm even going out to dinner, seeing as how Eddie has work.

I guess since I'm 18 now, I'll go and update my info and all.

Alright, here's the deal. I'm looking for a couple more people that would like to work on a project with me. It's like this-

I want to start up a website that would be like a small, online illustration firm. I'm just looking for a couple of more people that would be willing to do this with me. Basically, we'd work on projects together and whatnot, but also it'd be a site where people could see our work and then commission us.

I'm just looking for about two more people willing to help out. Note me/comment here if you're interested.

It's probably be called Blitzkreig Studios, and probably a .net address.

Commission/Sale Info- [link]

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Listening to: Socia Distortion- Reach for the Sky

I'm back. I got new shoes today, so that's good.

I'm gonna be going to SPC for now. :devtaka-sama: and I are gonna get an apartment, and I'm gonna enjoy this one-week subscription while it lasts.

I REALLY need a scanner. REALLY badly. I have so much new stuff that I can't show because I can't scan it. >.< And Digital Media>me.

Someone commission me/buy my stuff/give me things. It would mean a lot to me since I'm out of work and need to support my decadent lifestyle.

Like, you know...buy gas.



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I give up. I give, I give, I give. I'm done, I guess.

I'm Ringling material...but my mom told me this morning that I can't go. And that I can't go to USF. Oh, but I can go to SPC. This after they told me last July 'If you get in, we'll find a way'. Yeah, right.

She says I need to keep my options open...and that this applies to men, too. So I guess she wants me to break up with Eddie.

I'm so confused right now that all I could do was cry in my room. I'm home from school today because something blew into my eyes yesterday and scratched my cornea. But after she told me that I couldn't go...I just wanted to get dressed and leave for school.

I just feel so trapped...Like I can't do anything. I can't do art now, I guess. The only thing that I was really gonna have going for me professionally was my talent and that degree...the only reason I was going to was because it was my dream and I knew I could get a job from Ringling.

But now...nothing. I guess I just need to give up on it. Some people get full ride scholarships...I guess they're the ones that are suppoed to be artists. The rest of us just have our heads so full of pipe dreams and ambition that we need to be put down a few notches before it gets dangerous for us.

I guess I'm just gonna quit while I'm ahead. I'm gonna take a few days to sort this out...I'll be on AIM if you need me.