The Day the Music DiedI'm Ringling material...but my mom told me this morning that I can't go. And that I can't go to USF. Oh, but I can go to SPC. This after they told me last July 'If you get in, we'll find a way'. Yeah, right.
She says I need to keep my options open...and that this applies to men, too. So I guess she wants me to break up with Eddie.
I'm so confused right now that all I could do was cry in my room. I'm home from school today because something blew into my eyes yesterday and scratched my cornea. But after she told me that I couldn't go...I just wanted to get dressed and leave for school.
I just feel so trapped...Like I can't do anything. I can't do art now, I guess. The only thing that I was really gonna have going for me professionally was my talent and that degree...the only reason I was going to was because it was my dream and I knew I could get a job from Ringling.
But now...nothing. I guess I just need to give up on it. Some people get full ride scholarships...I guess they're the ones that are suppoed to be artists. The rest of us just have our heads so full of pipe dreams and ambition that we need to be put down a few notches before it gets dangerous for us.
I guess I'm just gonna quit while I'm ahead. I'm gonna take a few days to sort this out...I'll be on AIM if you need me.
Devious Comments
Student loans are always a possibility, though no one likes starting life in debt. But hell, if I didn't want heaping financial burdens, I sure as hell wouldn't be considering Med school. Talk it over with your parents and see what financial aid you can find.
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The conscience is the part of you that feels bad when all your other parts feel so good.
Your mother is being unfair. There's really no other way to say it. She is being unfair and hypocritical and not considering what will be best in the long run.
Is SPC cheaper?
Yes.
Is it pretty much just a community college in a pretty wrapper?
Yes.
Should you tell her to sod off and go to Ringling anyway?
Yes.
Get student loans, find work somehow, do anything, but do what you can to pursue your dreams. You are far too young and far too promising to give up. You might be paying off student loans until you're 50, but the chance at a real career and fulfilling your dreams is worth any price.
Hell, do you think Amber and I want to go medical school because it's cheap? We'll be paying off THAT debt until we die. Student loans suck, but nothing sucks more than unfulfilled potential.
As for Eddie, your love life is yours, and yours alone. Hell, when my mom was my age, she ran off against the wishes of my grandparents to Middle of Nowhere, Vermont, where she didn't know anybody else and had never lived anywhere by herself, with a man 9 years older than she was.
I call him 'Dad'.
I trust you to do what's best for you, hon, and I know that you have a bright future ahead of you. Don't give up. Never give up. We believe in you, even if you don't.
-Jared ^^
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"Oh, that's like a party and a half."
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